It has been 3 years and 2 days since I had to say my final goodbye to you. I miss you everyday. I miss your smile, your smell, and most of all your quircky sayings. I will never forget being your babydoll. I have so many wonderful memories with you all the way back to playing at Mcdonalds for hours, walking through the malls while you had your hair done, even the "bowl" haircut you had me get.
I regret so much not visiting you more than I did. I will never forget the phonecall I got from dad saying you had passed away. I remember dropping to my knees thinking it couldn't be true. Then reality set in. As I walked through the empty halls of your nursing home and had to be held up so I wouldn't fall over, I entered your room. You looked so peaceful laying in your bed, as if you were sleeping. It gave me so much comfort to hear that you had told your nurse it was time to go home only mear minutes before your passing. I know that you are at peace.
I have tried to take care of Zeyda for you, but now that he has left me as well, I feel empty and lost. I feel as though I failed him by not being there with him. I know there is nothing I coul have changed, but that doesn't change my feelings at all. Maybe one day that will change. Untill then I will do what I can everyday. I hope that I have grown into the "smart lady" you wanted me to, and I have made you proud.
I love you forever and always, your babydoll Cher